Today’s prompt is to write a day in my life. It ended up half poem and half story.
Mercury is in retro grade
The day has
I struggle to evolve
As I step into a new role
Shedding my skin
Fear creeps in
Again and again
Sometimes as self doubt
Sometimes as defeating exclamations of impossibilities
Remind myself of my dreams
Wait? What are they again?
Too big? Too small?
My soul is screaming
Closing my eyes
Taking a deep breath
Walk with the fear
Listen to it
Like two children ready to go outside
One excited and raring to go
The other timid, withdrawn and scared
The excited child takes the hand of the scared child
“Don’t worry. I’ll wait. I’ll listen. We can go at your pace. I know. It’s a big world. It’s vast and full of promise.” Seeing the fear in the scared child’s eyes. “Yes, it is scary too. We might fall. We might get hurt. But we will never know unless we leave the house. Don’t worry. We can always come back inside. Where you feel safe. I promise I will listen to you. Walk with you. Comfort you. If you promise you will try with me. Go with me. Together. We can conquer the world.”
The scared child looks into the eyes of the excited child. How can she say no. How can she resist the passion, the drive, the ambition in the excited child? She wants to say no. Return to her room, hid under the covers. But deep down inside, she knows she needs to move forward. Slowly. Step by step. And yes, when they fall and they will. Together they will get up and keep moving forward.
She reaches out her hand. Grasps the hand of the excited child tightly, never wanting to let go. The excited child smiles, ready to run when she feels the tug and together they walk out the door.
My fear and my ambition together, moving forward. Working through issues. Defining myself and my passions. Ready to jump but still standing at the edge. This was my day.